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I am. My creativity is bursting at the seems right now. I need to find a project or something to fullfill it. I'm an artist for crying outloud I should be painting or something exciting. But I'm kind of busy having pretty-girl syndrome.
I've got a few ideas but I need to map them out and get time to do them. I'm always being distracted or something. like people want to do nerd things or I feel like I need to see my friends. Man I need a clone to help me. But that wouldn't work cause then I'd have to kill it cause there can only be one of me. If there were two I think the world might have a problem on their hands.
Anyway ntm going on this side of the world. Been cruising ok. Work has been 90 to nothing so most days I come home and crash on the loveseat till my brain reformats. With school being back in I don't see many people cause most everyone I know is still doing that school thing... HA i've moved past that but the real world can be a big bitch sometimes.
Anyway enough rambling just wanted to do some typing and stream of consciencness cause it helps keeps things rolling along along along.... |
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| Lol it's been over 79 weeks |
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| 11:58am 26/08/2009 |
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Since I posted something on here that is.
Well this is pretty much the only place I can hide personal stuff and I'd like other people to know without certain parent figures finding it and getting pissed/upset/whatever at it.
Things have start turning upwards for me here lately. But i know that i keep things going there are things I'm soon going to have to overcome. things that Have hindered me in previous times.
I need to work on believing and trusting. I'm always second guessing me or situations involving me. I noticed last night and it brought up some thoughts from previous ventures. And how I'd say something and finish it with I hope. Or asking the same thing many times. It almost feels as though it shows that I don't trust or don't believe in things and I need to stop cause the doubt is starting to get to me and my level of comfort is high.
I also need to work on my confidence and the times that I extend the truth and/or lie. I've don't it a few times but I need to stop. I don't mean to but i happens. Also my confidence reflects the paragraph above.
Finally I"m glad I've been keeping to my morning things. I really feel a little more connected in the religion department but I still maintain my views on how that should be. ie no damning people, or judging others. Caring for everyone whether I like them or not. Being accepting of everyone and allow God to work through me as an example not as a piece of bread I'm trying to force down your mouth or making people feel guilty.
But I'm going to do my best to improve upon these things where I think I lack and make myself a better person on these small things.
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| Keeping with tradition |
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| 06:30pm 14/02/2008 |
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mood: cheerful music: the sound of my keyboard (It's a kool indie band)
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Well it's another February 14 and yet again i have no significant other to spent it with seems as though I have a nasty reputation for this I'm on a roll you know wonder if the world book of records would consider me. Well no since being depressed cause I have movies and pizza hell yeah. Happy Valentine's Day folks it's actually Singles Awareness Day! |
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| 01:42pm 29/12/2007 |
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I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh
You will suck the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this? |
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| Check it out YO! |
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| 03:09pm 30/05/2007 |
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Hey folks I know it's been along time since I've put anything up here because I've been working on this
www.digitaljazz.blogspot.com
SO please go check it out comment anything I shall be on it more than this so peace out! |
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| 09:58pm 12/05/2007 |
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at home.
thinking about how fast life goes by.
wondering about something choices i've got to make and trying not to get my hopes up.
Also i'm glad summer is here. I got an awesome brainstorm today on the ride home and i've gotta make it a story cause it sounds freakin awesome.
Congrats to all those that graduated. I'll miss you guys and You best stay in touch. |
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| My top 15 games of all time |
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| 01:19pm 16/04/2007 |
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Ok in response to Matt's List the other day I've gathered my top 15 favorite games of all time this took me about a day or to to narrow down and i realized that i can't fit 10 games in I've got to extend it to 15 cause that does the job for me. So here they are and I have explanation of why i picked the ones I did.
15.Gradius 3(SNES)
This game was originally a remake of the first gradius game on the NES but this one had improved graphics and was really long.This game always sticks out in my mind as one of the first flying around in space blasting aliens kinda game. With fun level and very difficult i remember playing this game for hours on end trying to beat it but man it was a blast.
14.Little Nemo: the Dream Master(NES)
Probably the first game i remember playing that had a good story back when i was a kid. Based on a Movie with the same name this game was so much fun to play when i was younger. I remember going around collecting all the keys and being really interested in all the animal transformation the game had as well as the level design which was just awesome.
13.Dr. Mario
While everyone was enjoying Tetris I was having a blast with Dr. Mario. Probably on of the first puzzle games I've ever played and the fact that it's mario. Made this game interesting to me. there is no telling how many hours i've put into this one game or how mad i would get sometimes when i couldn't get pasted a level.
12.Marvel vs. Capcom 2(Dreamcast)
I never really owned this game but one of my friends did and this was a arcade title that ate so much of my money. This game was probably to me the last great 2-D fighter before the rise of 3-D fighters. Nothing best making teams of Spider-man, Mega Man, and Chung-Li to kick people around with and with a character cast of 50 the possibilities were endless.
11.Sonic 2(Sege Genesis)
I remember playing this game for the first time over my cousins house and not wanting to leave because of the fun i was having(Even though I had to play as tails all the time). But this game will always stand out in my childhood. And even today i still play this game alot cause it was soo much fun running so fast across levels and man once you became super sonic you better watch out.
10.Star Fox 64(N64)
This was one of the first games i own for my N64. Even though i had never played the original Star Fox this game was so much fun and just all around a great game to play.This game has so many memories attached to it from the characters down to the unforgettable level design.
9.Donkey Kong Country(SNES)
I remember when this game first came out and great reviews it was getting. It was one of the first games to use 3-d models in a 2-D side scroller. The game took forever to beat and man if the squeal didn't rock as well. This series was one of my favorites growing up. Getting to ride your animal buddies and all the characters. DK still reigns supreme.
8.Mega Man 3(NES)
The first Mega Man game I ever owned. Man was this game a pain in my ass but it was so much fun. Getting through all the levels and then having to get through Dr. Wiley's fortess. The game really made you think from time to time. And the music I really liked the music to this game i can always remember the theme song and all the names of the baddies.
7.Street Fighter 2(SNES)
This game right here always reminds me of fighting games in their prime. I got this game and played it almost everyday. I know most people were playing Mortal Kombat at the time but I was a Street Fighter fan to the core. And I always played as Chung-Li and get mocked for playing a girl till i beat them down with her.
6.Super Smash Bros Melee(Gamecube)
Man this game has wasted so many hours of mine and my friends life. What's so fun about playing as classic Nintendo Character and having beat the ever living crap out of each other. I'm not sure but i keep playing this game even today.
5.Final Fantasy 3(SNES)
This was the first RPG I had ever playing and I know most people know it as FF6 but i'll always remember it as FF3. With a great cast of characters and a villain that no one could forget. I can always pick this game up and playing through and enjoy every minute of it.
4.Super Mario Bros. 3(NES)
The Mario game that set the bar of how a adventure game about two plumbers should be. This game was so much fun. The first time i beat the entire game no skipping or anything of the sort it took me 9 hours to beat. But i was so glad that i went through everything and didn't miss a beat. After that the games just got better.
3.Thief: The Dark Ages(PC)
This is the only PC title in my list but man is it a great one. Forget Splinter Cell or any other stealth game this was one of the pioneers of the genre. I remember when i first found this game i played it for hours and it took me about a month to beat but it was worth it and the sequels were just as fun.If you ever get a chance play this game the story is real good and you'll be raking your brain for hours trying to figure out certain levels.
2.Goldeneye(N64)
I've spend god knows how many hours on this game. I didn't own it at first but once i did i didn't quit till i had unlocked everything. I've had massive parties were we stay up till 4 or 5 in the morning playing this game. This game was the first game that got me into the FPS genre after that i was hooked.
1!The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past(SNES)
The king of my list this game is to me the best game ever. It set the standard for Zelda games. I've always been a fan of this series but this was the first for me. With a fun story, kool items this was something i had never seen before and I was hooked from there on I played every Zelda Game i could get my hands on and my collection has grown I've not missed a one. |
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| Starlight |
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| 01:15am 15/04/2007 |
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Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
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| An amazing idea in the land of music |
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| 01:53pm 26/01/2007 |
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So check it out I'm chillin out here in the office just looking around the net and i go to a place called www.thisspartanlife.com , great site check it out sometime and watch an episode, but i was looking around and discovered 8-bit music. Now for those of use that grew up in the age of the NES, SuperNES, Sega days. In those system there really wasn't music just sounds made through electronic devices, WELL some DJs thought it would be kool to make full music out of it so if you like the good old game or your looking for something new to listen to check it out here @ http://www.thisspartanlife.com/8bit.shtml read the history and listen to a play listen. |
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| The Battle awaits |
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| 12:37am 16/01/2007 |
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Waking from his restless sleep, Griffet opened his eyes and looked at the glowing embers of the statues that rest on the portal. It had been a long week the demons kept pushing and pushing thier way through the portal but the combined forces of the Horde and Alliance had shown that they would not give up Azeroth this time around. The word had spread that an offensive against the Burning Legion would commence @ midnight. Griffet had spent most of the week prepare himself for the dangers that lie ahead of him in this new world. Scouts had been sent ahead and returned with tales of fierce beast of unimaginable size. It seemed it would be a foolish mistake invading but Griffet had seen enough things from the Blackdragon Flight to the giants that made home in the Molten Core of Blackrock mountain. He was ready, ready to fight anything that would come his way. His fears that the Horde would turn their backs on them at any chance was growing, but with a full heart and ready spirit Griffet knew that with friends they wouldn't stand a chance and that it would take everyone working together to stop whoever was the behind the invasion. So now Griffet stood in front of the Portal that had slept so quite in the past year not moving or even showing signs of life. Now though it showed that it was ready to receive those from the outside now and Griffet took his frist step through ready and deter |
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| 02:53pm 31/12/2006 |
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Hope everyone has a grand new year. Hope things get better from some. who knows '07 might be the best year yet. |
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| Where you come from |
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| 08:34pm 17/12/2006 |
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You know how sometimes your in a place and you hear something you just needed to hear well today was one of those days. I went to church this morning and our Sunday school class was about being patience and waiting things out and having love and what love really is. Then the preacher talked about knowing where you come from and how you are raised and how that is the best way to be. My grandfather told me something today that meant alot to me and that was "No one know you better than you." Also a good friend last night told me to follow my heart for if you feel real strong about something then it's right but live your life like you want to live it. I thought coming home was going to be bad but light has finally come through the clouds in my life and i'm glad to be home. Hey joy if you read this give me a call sometime got something to tell ya about a dream I had about ya. Well I hope everything is going good for everyone. Well this is your friendly neighborhood Spyder signing off. Good night. |
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| Guess it's been awhile |
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| 10:34am 14/12/2006 |
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And that it has. It's been a fun year for school kinda hellish at times but maybe next year will be better. I've been through alot of crap this year and I hope things get better and that this break will help me clear my mind and get back into the going mood. This week had been ok so far got to hang with some people, talk with people, and get some books to read for when i go home. Looking forward to it all cause my good friends nathan will be in and I get to see him and My best friend in the whole world justin But he won't be in for long he told me the other day he's heading back to alaska with his step-dad for some R&R. Sounds like fun but way to cold for me. Anyway I get to see some movies and I'm going on a trip with joy come january, which i really excited about cause i get to attempt to ski(Gonna say now that i'm gonna break something but hell you never know till you try something). I'm bound and determined to wake up in time to see the sun come up over the mountains while wearing my blue monkey PJ pants and Spider-man shirt while drinking hot chocolate so yeah! I've also got to plan a New Years Eve party for my place with my friends. Also have to go check out Eragon, Childern of Men movies.Well let's see i've got to study for my TCF final gotta pass it. But I might post again before the year is out. Well if i don't see you guys before the tomorrow have a good break and take care. |
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| A Thankx plus others. |
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| 04:32pm 02/12/2006 |
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Hey folks this is your friendly neighborhood Spyder but for once I'm not going to talk to as Spyder but as Jeremy. A guy who has been really really screwed up the past month or two and was struggling to make it through the world. I was really alone only because i push those who cared the most away from me and I've made a couple of people very scared to be around me. I've been trying to get through things by myself and that just wasn't working I was so lost out there and I needed away out. I thought I had found the right path and I was really wrong. It takes true friends to stick it through with ya even when your wrong cause after you've reached rock bottom they are there to pick ya up and show you you mistake and to show you the right path to take. So I want to say I'm very sorry To everyone that I've pushed away, made them feel awkward to be near, and those who I've treated like utter crap. I've just really not been me but a part of me that was so out there that he was doing things that he didn't see the end results of. I'm gonna do my best to try and get back to where I once was. Something here and there are cluttered but thankx to two really awesome people there isn't much that I'm worried about. There are somethings that we just can't do alone and I really thought that I could make through it all by myself. But I want to thank those who are there for me through the thick and the thin I really appreciate it. Now it's time for me to get on the right track and get back into the groove of things cause it seems I've done some damage that I need to repair. Well folks this is your friendly neighborhood Spyder Signing off. Take care everyone and I'll do the same. |
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| 11:12pm 23/11/2006 |
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Memories can get to ya. Wish i could foget. |
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| My portfolio |
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| 08:39pm 14/11/2006 |
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Hey everyone my online Portfolio is up here is the address
bama.ua.edu/~rich001
please give me feedback on what you guys think it's not done yet i'm gonna play with the colors and do some more interesting things. |
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| Odds and ends |
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| 04:51am 14/11/2006 |
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Hey everyone it's me. So what's happen folks? well not to much here had an odd weekend that was up and down an then back up. Well i had a weird period of doubt in myself and my abilities then I got ahold of myself and told meself like it is and that made me feel alot better. Then the weekend came nothing exciting really happened except going to brett's place and watching the game and watching brett, zach, and brett's friends act goofy which was good enough. I also got the 20th anniversary editon of Transformers the Movie. So that was awsome. Then got to spend sunday night with my favorite wife and got some things of my mind but still kinda scrambled(thankx for listening wifey :-D) Then today was good been working on some drawings for people. And I'm enjoying some good old me time. Well other than that i've been sleeping again and eating is getting better for me, but i've still got somethings i've got to work out before getting back to 100%. Well I think i'm gonna go watch Spider-man 2 now been wanting to for awhile so take care everyone i'll see ya around. This is your friendly neighborhood SPyder signing off. |
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